2010 IBJJF No Gi World Championships
But nonetheless, it is still very hard walking away from a loss. They tell you that you win more from your losses than from your wins (which is true), but tell that to the "ego". It is especially hard to get over the losses that haunt you. The ones you play over and over again in your head wondering if only it had gone a bit differently. I could have done this, I should of done that...and on and on. Admittedly I am not always the best loser. Sometimes it is hard to separate the emotional part of the experience with the rational part. It's difficult not to take a loss personally, especially when you've already overcome a lot of challenges to get out there on the mats and compete. But in the end winning is not everything. It doesn't change who you are and shouldn't change your self value and self respect. The only solution is to get back up and keep on going.
The knowledge I've gained is that I cannot expect to do a million different things all at once and succeed at all of it. With my energy split over several areas, I cannot expect to perform to the best of my abilities. Everything will come crashing down on me if I don't take care of myself to begin with. Having down time to relax and tend to my needs is essential if I desire to compete at the top level.
I didn't know what to expect going into this tournament. It did run a little behind which is unusual for IBJJF. But I was told that they had more competitors than expected. No matter what, it's always great to see Jiu Jitsu flourishing. Hopefully next year they will have the event take place over a two day period to avoid delays. Despite not achieving my goal, I had a great time seeing friends, fellow competitors and watching the upper level competitors. Big congrats to everyone that competed and those that placed. I admire your courage to step up and compete at this level. A true winner is someone who can realize their faults, learn and most importantly -move on. I am looking forward to the wrap up of 2010 and the opportunities that 2011 holds.